11.1.08
Karol’s visa is expiring in less than 3 weeks. And yet the whole world conspires to let him renew it. I can’t let him leave me here but I don’t know how else to help him. All the hurdles lie in his end. And I just can’t do anything about it.
Sad. I feel bad that of us two, he gets all the pain and the stress. I can’t help but notice that while he’s going through everything, I go through nothing. Life gets really hard on him when it seems quite easy on me.
No wonder he’s often tensed and unmotivated. Simple happiness causes him a lot. For him, to have something really small means sacrificing a lot of big things. What more if he aims for the bigger ones.
If only I can literally shoulder half of his burden. I feel bad that although I’m giving him all the support I can give, it’s just never enough. Especially that I know I can do more if only the world will let me.
He is constantly racing against time. He’s getting very tired but time never rests and so can he…Sigh.
Sad. I feel bad that of us two, he gets all the pain and the stress. I can’t help but notice that while he’s going through everything, I go through nothing. Life gets really hard on him when it seems quite easy on me.
No wonder he’s often tensed and unmotivated. Simple happiness causes him a lot. For him, to have something really small means sacrificing a lot of big things. What more if he aims for the bigger ones.
If only I can literally shoulder half of his burden. I feel bad that although I’m giving him all the support I can give, it’s just never enough. Especially that I know I can do more if only the world will let me.
He is constantly racing against time. He’s getting very tired but time never rests and so can he…Sigh.
4.1.08
Happy New Year!
I’m physically back here at the office, but I’m not yet back at work. There are only 3 of us on this side of the floor. Everyone’s still on holiday so we can still do whatever we like. I’m actually just watching one tree hill in youtube. =p
It can be quite spooky around here. Lights automatically shut off when things stay still. And since there are only 3 of us here, the damn ceiling doesn’t seem to sense enough movements to keep the freaking lights on. We have to stand and walk and wave our hands up high every 20 mins or so to turn them back on.
Anyways.
Looking back, my 2007 wasn’t bad at all. Wonderful and terrible things had happened last year. There were lots of goodbyes, but they were compensated by enough hellos. I was defeated several times but felt victorious in some ways. I was terrible but things got better.
Karol moved here last year. We had several infuriating fights and depressing moments but at the end of the day, there’s just one fact that stands out, we are just meant to be together.
I’ve had a lot of travels. Covered most of the famous places here in NZ. Experienced a lot of new things, sky jump and bungy jump to name a few.
A lot of my friends here left. But new ones came.
Learned how to drive last year.
I felt a lot more independent in 2007. Managed my own finances. Made a lot of decisions on my own. Some are stupid but so what. I just felt very grown-up making them. The personal satisfaction of thinking for myself is very rewarding.
I gained too much weight. So to lose some is my new year’s resolution.
Blahblahblah.
There’s just a lot of things to look back to…but a lot more to move on forward. And I’m always up for that. I look forward to a fabulous 2008.
I’m physically back here at the office, but I’m not yet back at work. There are only 3 of us on this side of the floor. Everyone’s still on holiday so we can still do whatever we like. I’m actually just watching one tree hill in youtube. =p
It can be quite spooky around here. Lights automatically shut off when things stay still. And since there are only 3 of us here, the damn ceiling doesn’t seem to sense enough movements to keep the freaking lights on. We have to stand and walk and wave our hands up high every 20 mins or so to turn them back on.
Anyways.
Looking back, my 2007 wasn’t bad at all. Wonderful and terrible things had happened last year. There were lots of goodbyes, but they were compensated by enough hellos. I was defeated several times but felt victorious in some ways. I was terrible but things got better.
Karol moved here last year. We had several infuriating fights and depressing moments but at the end of the day, there’s just one fact that stands out, we are just meant to be together.
I’ve had a lot of travels. Covered most of the famous places here in NZ. Experienced a lot of new things, sky jump and bungy jump to name a few.
A lot of my friends here left. But new ones came.
Learned how to drive last year.
I felt a lot more independent in 2007. Managed my own finances. Made a lot of decisions on my own. Some are stupid but so what. I just felt very grown-up making them. The personal satisfaction of thinking for myself is very rewarding.
I gained too much weight. So to lose some is my new year’s resolution.
Blahblahblah.
There’s just a lot of things to look back to…but a lot more to move on forward. And I’m always up for that. I look forward to a fabulous 2008.
