23.11.07
1st – God knows how it went. I was a cry baby based on the pictures. I might have spent that whole day inside my crib. I even saw a picture of me receiving a gift from some guy with a bucket full of tears. It must be his fierce look.
5th/6th – I can’t remember it at all. All I have are pictures of a small gathering. There were a handful of kids (See, being quiet that I was, I still managed to acquire some friends when I was little) and me looking cheery in my red jumper blowing my cute little cake. And we were wearing party hats and there were balloons and stuff. It must have been a happy day.
7th – I had a pretty big bday bash although I didn’t like how I looked. I was small and skinny wearing this horrible balloon dress. But I do remember how packed it was. And I remember feeling very pleased to see a mountain of gifts, 2 of which were stuffed toys (TMNT and biglet) about as big as I was which when I see now look terribly small and filthy.
I don’t remember any of my birthdays between then and my 18th. Did I even celebrate? Hmm. But I do remember glimpses of my classmates singing happy birthday for me and dagul giving me money and lots of raining.
18th – Contrary to my sister’s (or any other girl’s for that matter) typical debutante party with 18 kaekekan, I managed to convince my folks to just spend my bday in Enchanted Kingdom. I co-celebrated it with another friend who turned 18 around the same time as me and we organised an all-expense paid whole day adventure in EK with around 25 of our friends. It was a blast! I remember a lot of laughing and eating of hotdogs and winning the arcade game against my notorious classmates and getting all wet in the Rio Grande Rapids which was relatively new at the time and riding the giant wheel of fate with my crush on the same gondola I was in, minutes before the mesmerizing fireworks display. Lol. It was a happy thought.
I remember that I also had a separate dinner with my friends in LB and a simple family gathering. So I felt I had a long celebration. And they were all worth it. My 18th celebration couldn’t have been any happier.
19th/20th – my birthday had been pretty ordinary. Spent the day in class, met up with family and friends for lunch or dinner then boozed at night. The only thing that made them a little more special was that karol and I were already together.
21st – spent my day sobbing under my sheets. It was 2 mons after I left pinas. I didn’t like my job, I had no friends and I was away from karol. It was plain depressing.
22nd – went fine cause I just met new friends and I acquired this job. Only karol was still away but my life was starting to get some shape.
And tomorrow my 23rd – nothing major happening. We’ll have some BBQ and that’s about it. But frankly I see this as my happiest birthday of all. For the first time in years, I feel like I’m living my life in full. I have everything I’ll ever need. My past birthdays have all been great but there’s always a trace of sadness for each of those. This is the first time I’ll be celebrating my birthday worry-free. And hope it’ll stay this way at least until Sunday. Coz I’ve never fancied big parties and balls. All I want is to keep things simple and light. Share it with the few people I love and linger every inch of hint that my already good day will be better even just until Sunday.
5th/6th – I can’t remember it at all. All I have are pictures of a small gathering. There were a handful of kids (See, being quiet that I was, I still managed to acquire some friends when I was little) and me looking cheery in my red jumper blowing my cute little cake. And we were wearing party hats and there were balloons and stuff. It must have been a happy day.
7th – I had a pretty big bday bash although I didn’t like how I looked. I was small and skinny wearing this horrible balloon dress. But I do remember how packed it was. And I remember feeling very pleased to see a mountain of gifts, 2 of which were stuffed toys (TMNT and biglet) about as big as I was which when I see now look terribly small and filthy.
I don’t remember any of my birthdays between then and my 18th. Did I even celebrate? Hmm. But I do remember glimpses of my classmates singing happy birthday for me and dagul giving me money and lots of raining.
18th – Contrary to my sister’s (or any other girl’s for that matter) typical debutante party with 18 kaekekan, I managed to convince my folks to just spend my bday in Enchanted Kingdom. I co-celebrated it with another friend who turned 18 around the same time as me and we organised an all-expense paid whole day adventure in EK with around 25 of our friends. It was a blast! I remember a lot of laughing and eating of hotdogs and winning the arcade game against my notorious classmates and getting all wet in the Rio Grande Rapids which was relatively new at the time and riding the giant wheel of fate with my crush on the same gondola I was in, minutes before the mesmerizing fireworks display. Lol. It was a happy thought.
I remember that I also had a separate dinner with my friends in LB and a simple family gathering. So I felt I had a long celebration. And they were all worth it. My 18th celebration couldn’t have been any happier.
19th/20th – my birthday had been pretty ordinary. Spent the day in class, met up with family and friends for lunch or dinner then boozed at night. The only thing that made them a little more special was that karol and I were already together.
21st – spent my day sobbing under my sheets. It was 2 mons after I left pinas. I didn’t like my job, I had no friends and I was away from karol. It was plain depressing.
22nd – went fine cause I just met new friends and I acquired this job. Only karol was still away but my life was starting to get some shape.
And tomorrow my 23rd – nothing major happening. We’ll have some BBQ and that’s about it. But frankly I see this as my happiest birthday of all. For the first time in years, I feel like I’m living my life in full. I have everything I’ll ever need. My past birthdays have all been great but there’s always a trace of sadness for each of those. This is the first time I’ll be celebrating my birthday worry-free. And hope it’ll stay this way at least until Sunday. Coz I’ve never fancied big parties and balls. All I want is to keep things simple and light. Share it with the few people I love and linger every inch of hint that my already good day will be better even just until Sunday.
// posted by jaena*** @ 11:24 
