8.8.06
Inaatake na naman ako ng lungkot ko.
Sigh. I'll be a bum in 3 months time. My swanky role as "energy analyst" will be over soon enough.
Damn. Considering the best option mystifies me almost always. Coz bottom-line is I don't really know what I want. Or maybe I know what I want but I'm not sure where to put more weight on. All I know is that I don't want to go back to Mc Donald's. I love it here in the city. I love busy streets and tall buildings. I love sitting on my desk and staring at my almost breathing compiler. Thing is, my contract is over soon and yet I'm not sure if they'll let me renew it, or if I even want them to renew it. I like the type of work here, but I'm not sure if I like the nature of it, if you know the difference.
I want to work in a bank or in an accounting firm. But that will never happen unless I study again. I will, but then again, I'm not even sure when. I can study after I finish my contract here, but studying means more money to spend and less time for work, which in turn means fewer savings. And god I need savings. I need money not just to buy lavish things and get my every whim, but to chase my ongoing plan to get Karol as soon as possible, and visit Pinas whenever I want/need to.
What am I to do? San na ako pupulutin? Sigh.
Sigh. I'll be a bum in 3 months time. My swanky role as "energy analyst" will be over soon enough.
Damn. Considering the best option mystifies me almost always. Coz bottom-line is I don't really know what I want. Or maybe I know what I want but I'm not sure where to put more weight on. All I know is that I don't want to go back to Mc Donald's. I love it here in the city. I love busy streets and tall buildings. I love sitting on my desk and staring at my almost breathing compiler. Thing is, my contract is over soon and yet I'm not sure if they'll let me renew it, or if I even want them to renew it. I like the type of work here, but I'm not sure if I like the nature of it, if you know the difference.
I want to work in a bank or in an accounting firm. But that will never happen unless I study again. I will, but then again, I'm not even sure when. I can study after I finish my contract here, but studying means more money to spend and less time for work, which in turn means fewer savings. And god I need savings. I need money not just to buy lavish things and get my every whim, but to chase my ongoing plan to get Karol as soon as possible, and visit Pinas whenever I want/need to.
What am I to do? San na ako pupulutin? Sigh.
// posted by jaena*** @ 11:27 
