29.9.06
Tatapak ulit ako sa yelo. Yey!
I was invited by some friends to join them this weekend. We will drive to mt. something to ski. Sosyal. Wahaha
I'm excited! I've been there before and have tried snowboarding. It was so amusing although it was literally a pain in the ass. Kaya since then, I've been dying to go back there and give it another shot just to know if I'm any better. Kaya I'm really looking forward to this trip. Should be a hell of fun!
babush!
I was invited by some friends to join them this weekend. We will drive to mt. something to ski. Sosyal. Wahaha
I'm excited! I've been there before and have tried snowboarding. It was so amusing although it was literally a pain in the ass. Kaya since then, I've been dying to go back there and give it another shot just to know if I'm any better. Kaya I'm really looking forward to this trip. Should be a hell of fun!
babush!
18.9.06
Our computers crashed. Wahahaha. We are all helpless. Work here is completely compiler-dependent so we have to wait for the IT department to fix the problem before we can all go back to business.
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my mum commented the other day that she never thought that I'd grow up to be this articulate and chatty and smart (don't argue! That's her exact words.) I was completely flushed. I thought so too. Wahaha.
I barely talk before. No one knew what was going on inside my head. Probably even I. and truth is even up to now, I still wonder how I have survived all those years of not talking at all. It's just pathetic. I'm actually fortunate to have acquired at least a number of friends in grade school. Seriously.
Nonetheless, I know that there are still lots of things to improve in me i.e. in terms of relating to others and expressing my thoughts. I have always wrapped myself up in hesitation and fear of criticism. But I'm trying to work on that.
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if I only have the power to exile anyone in a snap of my fingers, I would have got rid of my father long before. Bwisit talaga un. Call me discourteous and ungrateful basta bwisit sya. He's the most selfish and the most unreasonable bastard I have ever met. Promise! Bleh.
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I had a chat with Karol's mum few days back. (I have only met her once, kaya siguro gusto nya ko. Wahaha. Coz she didn't really get a chance to know me) She's been really supportive of my relationship with his son.
Big but: She has other plans for Karol. She's got friends in Oregon and Ireland who can help them bring Karol there. Juske talaga.
She was pleased to know that we (bf and I) too have plans of our own though. In fact, she'll help me with the requirements (bf's application for NZ). Kasi if I'll wait for my too damn busy Karol to send me the requirements, e tatanda ako sa kunsumisyon.
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We will head north some time in October. (Labor weekend that is.) We'll stay a couple of nights in Hastings. That is where the farm boys who once visited our place live. Meaning we are going to get a chance to live in a farm for 3 days. And it sure is something to look forward to. How boring could that possibly be? Wahaha.
Downside: Sigurado iinit ulo ni Karol coz I'll be with the same boy(s) again.
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it's been 2 hours now, and still no computer is functioning. Hala.
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Spring is here. It's less rainy and windy outside although it's still too damn cold. Anyway, what the heck?! It's cold here all year round!
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My mum resigned from her work. She got too stressed out. She got sick of her boss. Bumbum kasi! I realized na masama pala ang ugali ng karamihan sa mga bumbay.
Downside is there's less income for our family, and more expenses for the 3 left (dad, judz, me). But that's ok. I mean, my mum has done enough. Especially for my dad na saksakan ng kapal. Wahaha.
On the other hand, as a reward to my mum's acknowledgeable sacrifices for this family, she gets to go home in November! Waaaah. How I wish I'm in her shoes.
She's really excited. But since this is quite unplanned, she has limited budget for pasalubongs. Wahaha. Poor dagul.
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We went out for a cup of coffee. 4hrs has passed and yet computers are still down! Tsk. We should have gone home!
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Boring! Boring! Boring!
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my mum commented the other day that she never thought that I'd grow up to be this articulate and chatty and smart (don't argue! That's her exact words.) I was completely flushed. I thought so too. Wahaha.
I barely talk before. No one knew what was going on inside my head. Probably even I. and truth is even up to now, I still wonder how I have survived all those years of not talking at all. It's just pathetic. I'm actually fortunate to have acquired at least a number of friends in grade school. Seriously.
Nonetheless, I know that there are still lots of things to improve in me i.e. in terms of relating to others and expressing my thoughts. I have always wrapped myself up in hesitation and fear of criticism. But I'm trying to work on that.
...
if I only have the power to exile anyone in a snap of my fingers, I would have got rid of my father long before. Bwisit talaga un. Call me discourteous and ungrateful basta bwisit sya. He's the most selfish and the most unreasonable bastard I have ever met. Promise! Bleh.
...
I had a chat with Karol's mum few days back. (I have only met her once, kaya siguro gusto nya ko. Wahaha. Coz she didn't really get a chance to know me) She's been really supportive of my relationship with his son.
Big but: She has other plans for Karol. She's got friends in Oregon and Ireland who can help them bring Karol there. Juske talaga.
She was pleased to know that we (bf and I) too have plans of our own though. In fact, she'll help me with the requirements (bf's application for NZ). Kasi if I'll wait for my too damn busy Karol to send me the requirements, e tatanda ako sa kunsumisyon.
...
We will head north some time in October. (Labor weekend that is.) We'll stay a couple of nights in Hastings. That is where the farm boys who once visited our place live. Meaning we are going to get a chance to live in a farm for 3 days. And it sure is something to look forward to. How boring could that possibly be? Wahaha.
Downside: Sigurado iinit ulo ni Karol coz I'll be with the same boy(s) again.
...
it's been 2 hours now, and still no computer is functioning. Hala.
...
Spring is here. It's less rainy and windy outside although it's still too damn cold. Anyway, what the heck?! It's cold here all year round!
...
My mum resigned from her work. She got too stressed out. She got sick of her boss. Bumbum kasi! I realized na masama pala ang ugali ng karamihan sa mga bumbay.
Downside is there's less income for our family, and more expenses for the 3 left (dad, judz, me). But that's ok. I mean, my mum has done enough. Especially for my dad na saksakan ng kapal. Wahaha.
On the other hand, as a reward to my mum's acknowledgeable sacrifices for this family, she gets to go home in November! Waaaah. How I wish I'm in her shoes.
She's really excited. But since this is quite unplanned, she has limited budget for pasalubongs. Wahaha. Poor dagul.
...
We went out for a cup of coffee. 4hrs has passed and yet computers are still down! Tsk. We should have gone home!
...
Boring! Boring! Boring!
7.9.06
it's been exactly 1 year now since i moved here in NZ. but it so feels like ten years already. tagal na. nakakamiss. sigh. sigh. sigh.
i wonder what life would have been like had i not moved here.
i wonder what life would have been like had i not moved here.
4.9.06
I'm relieved. My contract is renewed. My boss says that they are keen to have me permanently especially that 2 of our colleagues will be leaving in February. So I got my contract extended while I go through the internal process of applying for the permanent position.
Although I am not entirely sure if I really like the nature of work here, I still feel pleased to hear the news. I take this as a sign that I can indeed start fixing Karol's papers. At the other end though, this means that studying will have to wait for another year or so. Ok lng. As long as money keeps on coming in. wakakaka.
Although I am not entirely sure if I really like the nature of work here, I still feel pleased to hear the news. I take this as a sign that I can indeed start fixing Karol's papers. At the other end though, this means that studying will have to wait for another year or so. Ok lng. As long as money keeps on coming in. wakakaka.
1.9.06
I lay awake hoping restlessly to fall back asleep. It was 3am. I kept my eyes shut thinking that it would help. But it didn't. The night was long and it was too quiet. All I could hear was the tick of the clock and my sister's heavy breathing. It was haunting. If only they could pause even for a minute, just so I could continue my peaceful doze...
Moments like that makes me hate silence sometimes. It is when it is noiseless that I hear all the voices in my head whispering-- reminding me of things better off buried in oblivion.
Sigh. Endless frustrations.
Inaantok tuloy ako dito sa work.
Moments like that makes me hate silence sometimes. It is when it is noiseless that I hear all the voices in my head whispering-- reminding me of things better off buried in oblivion.
Sigh. Endless frustrations.
Inaantok tuloy ako dito sa work.
