27.10.06

I often wonder if other people my age are also taking time at least once fortnightly to go through their regular budget. Or do they just quickly itemize things on their heads and let matters run as they should be. I wonder if I'm the only one here who literally lists things to take care of during pay day. Cause looking into this massive list pisses the hell out of me.

Why do I have sooo much payable at such a young age? I share with expenses at home but would it cost me less if I live alone? Sigh. Or is it because I take things a little too fast, like investing on my future and that sort of stuff? I'm single and earning with no responsibilities to anyone yet my expenses outweigh my savings. I so wonder why! Grrrr. Hirap mabuhay!

24.10.06

got the job! woot! sigh.

had a long weekend. kaso lagi naman umuulan. tsk.

ang BAAAAHHHHHOOOOO sa farm!! juske. iniisip ko pa lng na ganon ang gagawin ni karol, jusmio talaga!



20.10.06

in numbers and in words

Someone said that it's rare to find someone who is good both in English and in Math. I beg to disagree.

When I was in my secondary school, I've been one of those students who were perceived to be sort of excelling in both. I can't say that I really am, but parallel to the class I was in, I guess I did pretty well. Although personally, it has always been numbers more than words.

As this was the case, my options for University widened. I have always planned to take up accountancy, but for some stupid reason, I ended up embracing development communication. It's not exactly a misfortune or something to regret, because I did enjoy the course more so the life I had behind it. But at the end of the day, I still wonder what life would have been like if I went to a different school, and followed the dream I have always wanted to chase.

Then came the reality of looking for a job and struggling to belong in the world as a professional, along with the pressure that you have to love what you do. Frustrating.

Much as I would like to work here and there and try this and that, my opportunities are theoretically restricted by my skills, experiences and technical background. Being a "development communicator" sort of leads me this road I'm not sure I want to take. And for quite some time now, I've been trying so hard to manipulate my future. I'm pushing myself to go the opposite direction, but fate keeps pulling me back. Doubly frustrating.

I am an Energy Analyst. I play with numbers, Excel becomes my everyday companion, and counting happens to be our everyday game. The role seems to be pulling me towards my old lost dream, or so I thought. Coz lately, I noticed that my tasks are slowly shifting from data processing to data presentation. I learned the other day that when I do get the permanent position, my designation will be altered to Information Management Analyst. Then they bombarded me with projects like creating a newsletter, and designing our web page. Waaah! It's becoming too devcom again. The exact things that I know I can do, but I won't be too happy to do. Taking the lead role to do these things frightens me. I am not a born leader, specifically on this field. I am better off being a team player.

Sigh. Numbers and words are way too different, yet I get along with both. But honestly, the latter suffocates me sometimes...



17.10.06

Been blogless for ages. tsk!

Much as I want to exercise my writing through blogging at the very least, I still can not find time to do it regularly. There are just heaps going on at the moment that drain off all my remaining energy to blog. But since the weather is nice today, I feel quite in the mood to give some updates.

And so 3 weeks ago, we spent our weekend burying ourselves in the white-covered surfaces of Mt Ruapehu. It was a hell of fun although it was ridiculously hot! We learned how to ski. And like what other people said, found it easier than snowboarding. We had lunch in a cafe at the peak of the mountain. It was freezing there, but we still managed to treat ourselves with ice creams. My sister and I also made this really cute snowwoman which everybody thought was pregnant. It was hilarious!

The following day, we went to this small town called Taupo. It's a tourist spot. And so true to its word, every sight consistently wowed us like children. We played mini-golf there. That was enjoyable. I've actually never thought that playing golf could be that fun. Well, guess that depends on the people you are with. Then lastly, we soaked ourselves in a thermal pool before we head back home.

That weekend was like 2 days of strenuous workout. I was dead tired when we got back home because of too much physical activity and laughing. But it was all worth it. Because more than all the fascinating new experiences and jaw-dropping sights, I have found some really nice people there who can potentially be my friends.
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Later this week, we are going to see a concert, which btw, is the UP choral chorus' one. Hopefully it'll be worth my $45. A lot of people say that they're bulok though. Wahaha. I'll see for myself.
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It was my dad's birthday the other day. My folks' friends insisted that we organise a surprise party for him last Saturday. And so we did. Then we went to town Sunday (his bday) to dine out and to buy him a pair of expensive sports shoes. Then later in the afternoon, his guy friends came over to our place to booze up. A weekend bday bash for one unworthy bastard! I can't even remember hearing "thank you" from him.

I hate it that I'm always annoyed with him, but I just can't help it. bleh.
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My boss opened a permanent position for me. It is SOP however that the position be advertised internally. The role is 90% mine. The only risk is the possibility that along the process, someone else will apply and emerge better than I am. Sigh. So please pray for me. I really need this job. Anyways, if things won't go my way, ok lang. Kasi my contract is extended until Feb so I won't be a bum right away. And I actually have few more months left to find another one. Pero syempre, I don't want to go through the stress of finding another job diba.. kaya sana mapermanent na lng ako.
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Ooooh! My sister has found a better job. She now works as admin asst at the Wellington Hospital. City girl na rin sya like me. Yey!

I'm just so happy for her coz finding a decent job had been her ultimate struggle. She used to work at $2 shop as tindera (although asst manager na sya dun). She was really sick of her boss na bumbum. She would always go home grumpy and frustrated and tired. That I think gave her back the motivation to look for a better job. And so she did and found one. It was an admin work for a UK-based firm (she would work from home). We were all excited and looking forward. She quit her job 2 weeks prior to her commencement. But for some twist of fate, she had been fooled. Suddenly, her new employer was out of reach. She couldn't even access the website of the company. For some unfortunate coincidence, the company that offered her a job a couple of weeks back just vanished.

She got really depressed and frustrated. She spent her everyday applying for jobs in the Inet. In fairness, the turn out of her applications was faster prolly because of her $2 shop experience. She had interviews left and right. Then finally, just last week, Wellington Hospital offered her a job as admin asst. Saya!
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And, within the 3 weeks that my sister was a bum, I have experienced the stress of being a provider. My father and I took care of all the bills. Ang laki! It's a headache!

Plus the fact that my mom is a bum as well, and will spend 3 weeks in pinas para gumastos. And they (mom and judz) both have personal payables which are temporarily passed on to me. Plus the expenses on my dad's bday bash. Waaaah. I realized tuloy na mahirap pala talagang magkapamilya. Hehe.