20.10.06
in numbers and in words
Someone said that it's rare to find someone who is good both in English and in Math. I beg to disagree.
When I was in my secondary school, I've been one of those students who were perceived to be sort of excelling in both. I can't say that I really am, but parallel to the class I was in, I guess I did pretty well. Although personally, it has always been numbers more than words.
As this was the case, my options for University widened. I have always planned to take up accountancy, but for some stupid reason, I ended up embracing development communication. It's not exactly a misfortune or something to regret, because I did enjoy the course more so the life I had behind it. But at the end of the day, I still wonder what life would have been like if I went to a different school, and followed the dream I have always wanted to chase.
Then came the reality of looking for a job and struggling to belong in the world as a professional, along with the pressure that you have to love what you do. Frustrating.
Much as I would like to work here and there and try this and that, my opportunities are theoretically restricted by my skills, experiences and technical background. Being a "development communicator" sort of leads me this road I'm not sure I want to take. And for quite some time now, I've been trying so hard to manipulate my future. I'm pushing myself to go the opposite direction, but fate keeps pulling me back. Doubly frustrating.
I am an Energy Analyst. I play with numbers, Excel becomes my everyday companion, and counting happens to be our everyday game. The role seems to be pulling me towards my old lost dream, or so I thought. Coz lately, I noticed that my tasks are slowly shifting from data processing to data presentation. I learned the other day that when I do get the permanent position, my designation will be altered to Information Management Analyst. Then they bombarded me with projects like creating a newsletter, and designing our web page. Waaah! It's becoming too devcom again. The exact things that I know I can do, but I won't be too happy to do. Taking the lead role to do these things frightens me. I am not a born leader, specifically on this field. I am better off being a team player.
Sigh. Numbers and words are way too different, yet I get along with both. But honestly, the latter suffocates me sometimes...
Someone said that it's rare to find someone who is good both in English and in Math. I beg to disagree.
When I was in my secondary school, I've been one of those students who were perceived to be sort of excelling in both. I can't say that I really am, but parallel to the class I was in, I guess I did pretty well. Although personally, it has always been numbers more than words.
As this was the case, my options for University widened. I have always planned to take up accountancy, but for some stupid reason, I ended up embracing development communication. It's not exactly a misfortune or something to regret, because I did enjoy the course more so the life I had behind it. But at the end of the day, I still wonder what life would have been like if I went to a different school, and followed the dream I have always wanted to chase.
Then came the reality of looking for a job and struggling to belong in the world as a professional, along with the pressure that you have to love what you do. Frustrating.
Much as I would like to work here and there and try this and that, my opportunities are theoretically restricted by my skills, experiences and technical background. Being a "development communicator" sort of leads me this road I'm not sure I want to take. And for quite some time now, I've been trying so hard to manipulate my future. I'm pushing myself to go the opposite direction, but fate keeps pulling me back. Doubly frustrating.
I am an Energy Analyst. I play with numbers, Excel becomes my everyday companion, and counting happens to be our everyday game. The role seems to be pulling me towards my old lost dream, or so I thought. Coz lately, I noticed that my tasks are slowly shifting from data processing to data presentation. I learned the other day that when I do get the permanent position, my designation will be altered to Information Management Analyst. Then they bombarded me with projects like creating a newsletter, and designing our web page. Waaah! It's becoming too devcom again. The exact things that I know I can do, but I won't be too happy to do. Taking the lead role to do these things frightens me. I am not a born leader, specifically on this field. I am better off being a team player.
Sigh. Numbers and words are way too different, yet I get along with both. But honestly, the latter suffocates me sometimes...
// posted by jaena*** @ 12:43 
