31.5.07
yet again, I battled with the fierce wind on my way here. The sun insists on shining but the wind remains unfazed, determined to ruin a supposedly nice hair day.
10.5.07
After a series of dramas with karol ay ok na ulit kami. He flew here last Saturday. We figured out that a change of surroundings might help him overcome the stress he’s dealing with. Tamang-tama naman kasi 3rd anniv namin last may 2 at 25th anniv naman nila mother last may 1. We threw a party for them last 5 May at nun nga din dumating si karol dito.
That party was so lame (from my point of view) but still ok na rin kasi marami talaga tao plus andun pa nga si karol. Ganon talaga siguro un. in a prty, everyone enjoys except the person who organised it. Pero ok na rin. I had enough laughs. I sensed that karol had a great time as well cause it’s the first that he’s seen that much people. I get to introduce him to almost everyone kasi people kept asking me about him.
Hanggang ngayon andito pa sya. He’ll fly back to the south island tomorrow morning. Off ako last tues-wed to spend quality time with him. Ok naman. Ang saya. Parang walang nangyaring away. I love having him here. I love the feeling. Ung may naghahatid syo on your way to work. Someone’s there to cook for you. Someone’s there na katulong mo sa lahat n g bagay kahit sa paglalaba pagsasampay ng damit, o paghuhugas ng pinggan etc etc. tapos we went swimming and sauna together. Tapos we bought a notebook for him para malibang sya dun sa south. Tapos we made a lot of shopping. Tapos we played pool. Tapos we went karaoke with friends and we watched spiderman 3. basta ang sarap ng feeling. Sana andito na lng sya. Sana talaga.
Ayun…kaso tomorrow aalis na ulit sya. Back to reality. He’ll be stressed out again tapos ako I’ll be lonely again. Pero ok lng naman. Bibili na rin kasi sya ng car kaya pede na ko pumunta dun kahit kelan ko gusto kasi masusundo na nya ako sa airport. Hehe.
Yesterday, he told me that he’s really happy when he’s here in welly. Sigh. Napapaisip na naman tuloy ako ng bagong plan. Ano kaya? Parang gusto ko na magtayo ng business tapos he’ll manage it. Or we can both manage it. Pero pano? I don’t have a head for that. Parang gusto ko magfranchise ng dunkin donuts. Sa Auckland lang kasi meron nun. Pano ba? Sigh.
Lumilipad utak ko..
That party was so lame (from my point of view) but still ok na rin kasi marami talaga tao plus andun pa nga si karol. Ganon talaga siguro un. in a prty, everyone enjoys except the person who organised it. Pero ok na rin. I had enough laughs. I sensed that karol had a great time as well cause it’s the first that he’s seen that much people. I get to introduce him to almost everyone kasi people kept asking me about him.
Hanggang ngayon andito pa sya. He’ll fly back to the south island tomorrow morning. Off ako last tues-wed to spend quality time with him. Ok naman. Ang saya. Parang walang nangyaring away. I love having him here. I love the feeling. Ung may naghahatid syo on your way to work. Someone’s there to cook for you. Someone’s there na katulong mo sa lahat n g bagay kahit sa paglalaba pagsasampay ng damit, o paghuhugas ng pinggan etc etc. tapos we went swimming and sauna together. Tapos we bought a notebook for him para malibang sya dun sa south. Tapos we made a lot of shopping. Tapos we played pool. Tapos we went karaoke with friends and we watched spiderman 3. basta ang sarap ng feeling. Sana andito na lng sya. Sana talaga.
Ayun…kaso tomorrow aalis na ulit sya. Back to reality. He’ll be stressed out again tapos ako I’ll be lonely again. Pero ok lng naman. Bibili na rin kasi sya ng car kaya pede na ko pumunta dun kahit kelan ko gusto kasi masusundo na nya ako sa airport. Hehe.
Yesterday, he told me that he’s really happy when he’s here in welly. Sigh. Napapaisip na naman tuloy ako ng bagong plan. Ano kaya? Parang gusto ko na magtayo ng business tapos he’ll manage it. Or we can both manage it. Pero pano? I don’t have a head for that. Parang gusto ko magfranchise ng dunkin donuts. Sa Auckland lang kasi meron nun. Pano ba? Sigh.
Lumilipad utak ko..
2.5.07
I was on the bus, sitting by the aisle. I was waiting idly as some more people came in and walked past me. Then there was this one man who has this huge suitcase hanging from his shoulders. Out of nowhere, his massive suitcase, in all honour, hit my face. I voiced a genuine "ouch" and gave him a fuming look, but to my further dismay, the man didn’t even notice. It was so painful that a tear just fell from my eye. I could see the girl right next to me looking at me with both sympathy and amusement. It was embarrassing and painful, but worse, I didn’t even get any sorry. And I didn’t even see the face of the man I’m suppose to hate in case this results in contusion. Sigh.
1.5.07
It’s my mom and dad’s 25th wedding anniv today. Who would have thought that they’d reach this far? I thought their thing was already over when I was 14 yrs old. But I guess not, they choose to stick together, product of my mom’s insane affection for my good-for-nothing father. Anyway, if they ended their marriage long before, it wouldn’t have made so much difference. Only my father wouldn’t be here. The separation would have made me feel sad but by this time I probably would have been over it.
In all fairness, a small part of me wants to congratulate them for successfully standing the test of times. I know they’ve gone through a LOT, to the point that I as a daughter already wished that they’d end their marriage. A small part of me envies my mom for having a very humble heart, tolerating all the heartaches my dad up to now is causing her. But still I don’t want to be like her. I feel like I’ve already suffered enough for having a terrible father. Hope my future husband wouldn’t be like him. Cause when I get married, I don’t want to just stay married, I want to stay in love.
In all fairness, a small part of me wants to congratulate them for successfully standing the test of times. I know they’ve gone through a LOT, to the point that I as a daughter already wished that they’d end their marriage. A small part of me envies my mom for having a very humble heart, tolerating all the heartaches my dad up to now is causing her. But still I don’t want to be like her. I feel like I’ve already suffered enough for having a terrible father. Hope my future husband wouldn’t be like him. Cause when I get married, I don’t want to just stay married, I want to stay in love.
